Virtually Paul

Working my way up

March 23, 2007 on 10:20 pm | In The Life of Paul |

I have had a big week this week. I’ve started a new job which has been a big challenge for me personally. I like being an educated individual. I like being able to see what I’m doing and knowing why I’m doing it. Unfortunately, I have essentially no idea what’s going on. I’ve just been rocking up to work and trying to find out how things fit together based on what I’ve been dropped in.

I’ve had a lot of conversations with colleagues and sat in on some very long training sessions, much of which I barely grasped. So, in short, I’m finding it frustrating. At the same time, I can see how much more of a difference I could make to organisations that I encounter in the future if I get my head around this stuff. The partners at work are right. It will be extremely good grounding for the future. I’d just like to feel like I had slightly more of a clue in the present moment.

What frustrates me most is that, at the moment, I can’t even see a pathway towards having a consolidated understanding of the things I’m meant to be doing. Some of the other junior staff have advised that it takes a little while for things to sink in. I could really use some more guidance in that direction but I plan to sit tight for the time being. I’ll try to stay positive and motivated. Hopefully I’ll be guided through the wilderness a bit more next week.